So thankful to God for many things that had happened that I could not sleep yet.
Day 183/365: moments of stillness
Last night, our electricity went out unexpectedly. I looked out of my window and noticed that the street lights were out as well. While I imagined many others in Atwell to be perhaps in slight panic at the unexpected power outage — or if not, had they been asleep at that hour — I sat in the shadows of my room and listened. For the first time in an indiscernible length of time, I heard the sweet sound of pure silence. Absolute stillness.
I decided to put the candle that Arthur gave me two months ago — this scented Glasshouse candle that smells of cilantro and orange zest — to good use; and so, in the midst of my little bedroom I spent my remaining waking hour gazing at the beauty and resilience of my single candle flame, and thanking God for the pause, for the silence. I genuinely felt as if time had stood still in that moment of silence.
“Loving someone is a process. Whether that’s God, or that’s another sticky human, it’s a process. The movies will say it’s something different but— no matter how instant that first draw to someone is— love is a building process. It’s doors unlocking. It’s windows breaking. It’s the discovery of new rooms inside of yourself. It’s the dark. And it’s the light. And it’s dark and light all scrambled into one. At the root of it, it’s a slow, trusting, building process that starts with letting someone in.”
Reminder: What we believe is what changes our lives, not just what we know.
How often do we say, “God, I’ll do anything you want me to as long as it’s in this city.”
Or “I’ll make any career choice you want me to ask long as I can live comfortably.”
Or “I’ll preach the gospel as long as I don’t have to talk to the people who will probably laugh at me.”
"Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders”
Day 182/365: the art of waiting
“Long ago, men went to sea, and women waited for them, standing on the edge of the water, scanning the horizon for the tiny ship. Now I wait for Henry. He vanishes unwillingly, without warning. I wait for him. Each moment that I wait feels like a year, an eternity. Each moment is as slow and transparent as glass. Through each moment I can see infinite moments lined up, waiting. Why has he gone where I cannot follow?” ― Audrey Niffenegger, The Time Traveler’s Wife
I am sure that God keeps no one waiting unless He sees that it is good for him to wait. —C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity
If I have You, I have everything.But without You, I am nothing. —Kari Jobe, Always Enough
“Anything you truly want must be worth fighting for.”
“We can’t be afraid of change. You may feel very secure in the pond that you are in, but if you never venture out of it, you will never know that there is such a thing as an ocean, a sea. Holding onto something that is good for you now, may be the very reason why you don’t have something better.”
—C. Joybell C. (via onlinecounsellingcollege)
Your priorities must be God first, God second, and God third, until your life is continually face to face with God and no one else is taken into account whatsoever. Your prayer will then be, “In all the world there is no one but You, dear God; there is no one but You.”
Keep paying the price. Let God see that you are willing to live up to the vision.”
—Oswald Chambers (via calm-mysoul)
This life that you have is not about looking good and being impressive in the eyes of the world. It’s about bringing Him glory in His way, in His time, and by His grace. You are here as God’s vessel, beloved. You contain the Lord’s mighty river. He is touching people through you. When the society sneers and disapproves, know that your Father is greater. Know that your Savior has conquered everything.